I can’t believe my son is 2 weeks old already! It feels like I just brought him home yesterday. But that’s what happens with children, they grow up so fast. My eldest is four and 1/2 now, and I still think of him as a baby. He loves to remind me that he’s a “Big Boy” though, especially now that he is a big brother.
Having two children makes me think that our family is complete. We are the perfect nuclear family. Mommy, Daddy, 2 kids, oh, and the dog. I can see it now, ten years in the future, standing in front of our perfectly manicure lawn, taking our annual family portrait, smiles from ear to ear. My boys will be perfectly well-adjusted kids, who play a variety of sports, are musically talented and well-behaved. Or things can go the completely awry and we end up a hot mess of a family.
That’s one of the scariest things about motherhood. You are responsible for raising a child and molding him into a positive contributing member of society. It can be a bit overwhelming to think of having so much power and so much responsibility over another human’s life. Most mothers go into this journey with a can-do attitude. I go into it with confidence and my fingers crossed. I also own copies of What to Expecting When You Are Expecting, What To Expect The First Year, and What To Expect The Toddler Years. I haven’t bought any parenting books beyond that. I honestly love children and really enjoy most of the stages they go through, but then I think about my teenage years, and I shudder. Those were the scariest and craziest years EVER. If my boys end up acting like I did as a teenager, I’m in for a hella of a ride! Well, my mother did say that “one day…you will pay with your own children what you are doing to me…”
So I’m going to shake those scary flashbacks and look down from this keyboard and see my sleeping 2 week-old in his rocker. He is perfect. He is quiet. He is a gift from God. I must enjoy these special, quiet times. Before long, baby Alex is going to be a “Big Boy”, just like his older brother, sitting in the back sear, singing “Sex on Fire”…